go away wind.

17 holes for 17 silver princess trees ready.
waiting..more waiting,
now for water
that can be driven up and down the driveway on a trailer
so the princesses dont frizzle
in this heat
sometimes i can be patient.
and 1 shiny new dishwasher
not a person
a machine
part of the cleanse my life thing.. maybe.
our old dishwasher left always a few dishes dirty. at least a few.
and it was ugly
this one is nice. if that is possible.
nice because it works at least.
each night i plan on doing something other than lying on this bed.
and each night i seem to find my way straight to bed
after the kids are in their little cocoons'
tired me,
and we have thousands of ladybirds/bugs? that arrived on our farm. lucky us. i hope.
i said to my boy maybe we should start building an ark.
then the rain may come.
have you seen evan almighty?
i could keep babbling
but maybe i should go do some dreaming
.........

christmas tree ?

sky

whilst visiting Pia today..after trying to have an afternoon snooze and then being woken whislt still half awake by my farmer boy telling me he had just killed two brown snakes in the last ten minutes. oh my god. i am never going outside again. pia was making space and listed six random things about her cute self. well as you know i am in need of space on all planes....so here is 6....

. i went to india before i had babies. i want to go again. but now im scared. because as beautiful as it is...i have babies and need to be alive. we felt like we almost died a few times there. the roads are insane. we got so so sick with delhi belly of some description. but the textiles aaaahhhhhhhhhhh.........

.. if i were rich i would hire a chef, someone like Jamie Oliver and i would live happily ever after

... i love funny people. where would we be without laughing?

.... i also love old people. i think its because my dad was old before he died and i miss him.

..... this may be strange but it is true. i often think about people..friends or family and then the next thing...they phone me. they hear me . its true. my inside voice is louder and clearer than my actual voice. strange.. probably.

...... i love hospitals. i think maybe i was a nurse in a past life. or maybe i just loved being in hospital when i had our three babies. they were such happy times. and that press the buzzer and someone comes to help you invention was expecially nice.

and another amelie photo for you. the sky.

i need to get the camera cleaned...see that little blurry spot. its there in many of our photos. and i cant get rid of it.

if the bottlebrush trees that are flowering now were flowering at christmas, i would have our pink bottlebrush as our christmas tree. its perfect.

sweet pea

i think i remember writing a list at the start of this year, feeling all inspired and motivated by the new year. it seems so long ago but at the same time not so long ago at all. im not even sure whether i put this on my list actually... but i remember thinking i have to grow some sweet peas this year. i always do that with flowers. i see them flowering and then promise myself to get them growing in my garden.
on that list im sure there were many things related to actually doing something with printing drawing sewing.....other than making piles and mess in my house. well i still have the piles growing and they havent moved very far or advanced in any way at all...other than their size. im now hoping that next year when my baby girl starts kinder and i will theoretically have more spare time...i might do something more than pile making.



but i did grow some beautiful sweet peas. the scent almost made me dizzy as i was taking these photos. they are so delicate. and i like to be surprised by their colour.

speaking of my baby girl. she gets quite bored at home alone these school days. she wants to socialise with her friends all day every day. which isnt quite possible. so i gave her the camera in the garden the other day and she took this photo. its one of my most favourite photos ever.

my other beautiful girl, who now trots and jumps over jumps at her horse riding lessons...so exciting for her... she gave me this beautiful rose bush at christmas last year. every day when we walk in and out of our house we pass the red rose. and im wondering just how big can a rose grow? it is the biggest puffiest red velvet rose ive ever seen. i love it.

and i cant leave out my little super boy. he wiggles his long fingers with excitement as her tries to get his wonderful ideas out quick enough before they lead him somewhere else. he is electric. and i adore him more every day.

i guess the list of things i havent done yet can wait a bit longer.

party

copy and paste?

I've just been trying to work out how to use Adobe Illustrator. I got it as a present from a sweet boy and girl who live in the city. Lucky me. I just want to know how to repeat a pattern. It can't be too hard can it? Time is all I need. And as we mummas know...unfortunately time cannot be picked from a pretty blossom tree.

The weekend was so much fun at my friends 40th birthday party. I could get used to the dressing up, dancing, laughing, staying up all night thing, oh and having some champagne too.
The next day we weren't so rosy...my feet weren't happy about the high heels I made them wear. Understandably. I never ever wear heels. Only to weddings. And I don't go to many weddings.

The kids would have loved to party too .... I think we need to get dressed up and go out dancing and eating somewhere with them.

We need to do more dancing.

I left the camera at my friends house.. so don't have any photos . I feel a little lost without a camera nearby.

The wind has been so wild for the last two days that I can hear the trees in the garden whispering...please stop.

I'm feeling like I can't keep up with time.

poppy

yellow

whilst visiting moopy and me i found this very cool photo site. it is so much fun to make your photos look old. it was after midnight last night and i couldnt stop flicking through photos on my computer to turn old and black and white. now i will get some printed and maybe enlarged. what is it about old looking photos. coloured ones just dont have the same feeling.

im feeling guilty because im not going on the trip to melbourne with sindri and his class to the zoo. at first he was upset and then refused to go . today he is getting more enthusiastic about it and is making me promise i will be there on the next zoo trip. my boy is so forgiving and i feel pretty rotten about it. but im always there for them. its not like im not. i will die if something happens to him when he is that far from me. here is that letting go thing again. its not easy. i dont think it will ever be.

i went to bendigo today with my big boy and little amelie. i found a brilliant yellow dress to wear to the mega event that is my dear friends 40th birthday party this weekend. and my boy bought a new suit. spunk he is. i hope i dont look like a bridesmaid in my dress... the colour of it is amazing. its silk and its simple and i should take a photo instead of babbling away.... there will be photos after the party im sure.

so im why dont you go try out the photo changing thing. its in japanese but it just takes one click. its fun.

the wilderness

as much as i like living close to nature...
....... in the past week we have killed a brown snake in our back yard
....we have a swarm of bees that has taken up residence on our side fence..just hanging there buzzing away happily...
sindri saved a baby rabbit from the mouth of our cat.. it was loved and snuggled for a day until it died that night , resulting in three devastated children...
... and tonight i just killed a red back spider on our back verandah.
giving up this information may mean my friends who read my blog wont want to come visit me anymore. its ok. i understand. i wouldnt visit me either.
and right now...the busy, smelly, at times scary city ..is looking much more attractive.
the thing that saves me is my beauuutiful garden.
i wouldnt want to live in a place without my garden.

p.s whilst visiting shula i found this place i now like to visit. Anna Torma makes beautiful embroideries.. i like...

..... TEN.....

8.20 am im drinking my second coffee for the morning

our beautiful birthday girl woke me with " mummy its my birthday..im ten!

happiness

...and the kind of tiredness i like.....birthday morning tiredness

its going to be a perfect spring day with our ten year old

3.26 am

it took a long time to make the desk, print a horse, make a cushion, make a flag banner, clean up mess, change birthday girls bed into new doona cover, eat turkish delight.... so here i am at this strange time of the day. i rather like it..if only i could sleep for 6 hours ..around midday.
veda is sleeping in sindris bed. amelie is sleeping in my bed. my boy is only getting a couple of hours sleep before he must wake up and milk the cows. and im on the couch wondering where i will squeeze into a bed and fall asleep before soon enough the three excited cherrypies will come wake me for birthday fun.
yes. time to find that space.
photos tomorrow. sleep now.

colourful windy day

some spots i printed for hana on some woollen/cotton

tops i found. they are probably way too big ..but bigger

is better than smaller. melinda could always shrink

them. and hana will grow. at some time they will fit.

i could quite happily cover my world in spots. its

addictively fun.

today is the last holiday before school starts. the kids

have given that fact no thought at all. the freedom of

being a child and living in the moment.

tonight i will eat thai with friends.

right now the wind is wildly blowing ..it called the

kids outside to jump on the trampoline and to be blown about.

wild they will be when they come inside.

im waiting for parcels too. a poster. some ink. a print.

did i tell you our first baby girl is turning ten this week.

ten! double digits. im happy she still has her beautiful sense

of wonder, innocence and fun. it seems our society tries to steal

it way too soon from kids these days. maybe thats one blessing

of living on a farm , away from the city. she gets to be free

for just a little bit longer.

i did sew a top today. it took maybe 15 minutes. i spent about

an hour yesterday tracing a pattern, cutting fabric, sewing ,

trying on, adjusting to fit, sewing some more. i ended up with a

jacket that is ok but not worth the pain.

i like my 15 minute top way more.

the fact is im very impatient. and patterns dont always

equal happiness. :-) ..especially japanese patterns that i

cant understand or work out what size im meant to be cutting.

i usually guess. which is a recipe for disaster i know.

the kids are inside now. ive surrendered to them my new

textas in exchange for a little bit more quiet time for me. getting

their hands on my textas is a thrill for them! theres a million

other textas in the house but mummys ones hold special value.

its nice.

they are doing some drawings of each other for the local

show art section. i love to hear them laughing together in

the next room.

octopus

space

ive taken over the kitchen table. its now my new desk. my family, the sweet hearts they are , put up with my not-normal -mummy behaviour. i had the whole day to myself today. that was very nice. it was so quiet. i had space to think. i went out for a few hours but my cold and sore head made me come back home again...which was a good thing. i put on my new dress and pretended i was at work in my studio. they say that works. you can pretend yourself into being real.
and then the kids came home again. my world returned. . tired and hot and happy.

to the city and back

this photo refused to let me turn it anti clockwise. stubborn.

we went to melbourne for a quick visit.

and honestly. it was crazy. cold. we found that the shops are filled with ugly and expensive ..stuff. the museum was fun though. . the one little area we explored anyway. there were drawers of birds, butterflies, sea creatures........... some frightening. some so beautiful.

we ate crappy expensive food. and bad coffee. maybe we just visited all the wrong places. i think so. annoying.

it didnt really matter because we were away, together , and the kids had fun, and we did manage to find a few nice things that we dont need but we liked...a new dress, new shoes, new books that veda read before we even left melbourne...she needs a library gold card! ..

i came home with a throat that is getting sorer by the hour. sore throats are no fun.

so im motivated to make. and print. and sew. and grow. its much more fun. im sure.

back to my garden...im liking my sweet peas and freesias. how delicious do they smell?