thankyou rain

nice mail

today i received a postcard from my sister who is having a long, wonderful holiday in Positano Italy. i sat at my letterbox laughing happily at her stories she sent to me on that little piece of card.

today my other sister landed back in Japan. that isnt something that makes me sit and laugh happily.

i have constant itchy feet. itchy as in they need to go somewhere.

im always plotting get aways in my head. get aways for our family. to places like Broome of Vietnam or Stromboli. probably in reverse order. though the destinations are constantly changing.

its unsettling and sometimes i wish i could just be content. i have gypsy in me for sure.

its probably related to my short attention span. i want to screenprint. i want to sew. i want to write a kids book. i want to grow an amazing garden. i want to paint all day.

oh dear. and i do . all of them and more. whilst being the best mum i can be.

and while im doing that...id like to travel the world.

the winter chills are here

the farm is muddy and spikes of grass can be seen every where , its even growing on top of my lawnmower ..its not quite long or luscious enough to feed hungry cows...but it wont be long

our house is empty

after having melinda and hana coming and going up and down the driveway from mums to our place , for weeks that felt like much longer, and then staying with us for days that felt like weeks that would never end

letting them go again, back to far away japan, was no fun at all.

a few hours after they left i fell into a deep sleep..a bit like sleeping beauty and i woke the next day with a flu , to find that ammie and veda also had it. the boys in the house were safe.

today its quiet with only amelie home with me

shes not feeling the best and i can feel the emotions ready to burst out of me

text messaging my sister as she lies awake in italy while i sit here in a fragile state was fun and disturbing

my amelie digs her frozen little toes into me. why cant she just wear socks. and why are there still flies alive and buzzing around my head? no surprise really. about either. my warmth doesnt compare to a pair of socks...or her bed either...which is why shes always in mine.next to me.

i read my star signs. that just gave me permission to be an emotional nutcase. he hee... not really...it told me to go and create or meditate and try not to think too much in a linear manner. hmm.

i could happily take photos of rainbows for the rest of my life..i could become a rainbow chaser. maybe thats what i am already

sunday

home + heart

the rain keeps falling

the paddocks that i imagined would never change colour again are now green

soon the cows will be able to eat green fresh grass

the chaos is still here

but i believe it will soon change

you have to believe

i had such a nice day

driving and talking and laughing and just being with 5 of my favourite people

the clouds were

gigantic and glowing

and we got lost on the way home

im tired

and im in love

and i dont understand

and i wish i did

im living in more mess than i like

and i accidentally broke the wings off ammies new glass guardian angel

i need to glue them on before she sees

tonight we are hoping that the tooth fairy comes to get vedas tooth

she didnt come last night

maybe because it was raining

or the glass holding the tooth was too deep

or because veda was doubting her existence

lets hope she returns to our house

we all love the tooth fairy

now i need to go have a deep delightful sleep to

recharge me for the next few fun filled days