i honestly dont know what to write here any more.
im writing today because my sister emailed to tell me (more than once) that the bunny is pissing
her off. which made me laugh.
i havent written here for oh so many reasons.
it probably began with the drought...which is a whole story itself...
and then we found out our friend is dying from a brain tumour
she has twin one year olds and a two year old and the sweetest husband you could imagine
and instantly life did not make sense anymore
nothing made sense
nothing mattered
and i really didnt want to sit here being totally depressed with anyone who cares to drop
by this blog.
a blog.
is this just a complete waste of time.
how should we use our time here on earth anyway
my mind has been spinning while my heart is broken for this beautiful family
i held my friends hand
while her three little boys played outside with our kids
nothing is certain
what is real?
ive been waiting for answers
i got that she is peaceful
she is not alone..she told me
im not sure what we are supposed to do with this life
all that matters right now
are my children
and true and pure love
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and this is why i havent been near my blog for awhile
3 comments:
What can anyone say, no-one knows,no-ones sure, can't imagine the feelings, just feel your heavy heart.. x x
gulp.um.now youve ditched the rabbit i dont know what to say. im making a lemon tart for you in my head and wishing i could be there a little sooner.
i like seeing your blog.
its beautiful like you.
I'm so sorry about your friend. I don't know why you write your posts, I guess for me it's for me. Life is as you say, well, why is it as it is, unjustness and all? I don't WANT anything from it, it's just to be heard and that's okay with me.
I started to tell you about my girlfriend's sister in law, who with 3 children under 5 is in a similar situation. I stopped though, with the details, because it seemed thoughtless which is not what I intended. I guess you can only make every moment count - help her to record the things she wants remembered, you can help her children remember what she needs them to. It's sad, so so sad, but I know that would be a priority for me - knowing the children continued to KNOW me.
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