life keeps going
and as much as i wanted it to stop , a little while ago
so i could just sit under a tree in our garden
life kept going on around me
which was probably a blessing
because i was thinking and thinking and it was getting me nowhere
yes i have been thinking ....about coming back here to my blog
if i could have worked out how to save a copy of it i would have deleted it a little while ago
but i couldnt be bothered trying very hard to work out how to do it . so i didnt
and i guess thats good because im back here again
writing to you from my cosy bed in the dark middle of the night
our beautiful friend died a little while ago
two weeks? time is a blur
it was and is heart breaking
her family are so beautiful. which makes it even more heart breaking.
and now we have to keep living. with the blessing of her life in our hearts.
so thats what im trying to do.
i fall more in love with our kids every day..
and at the same time im so much more less tolerant of people and their crap...to put it not nicely
we have melinda and hana here
its like she has always been here
she should be here.
tomorrow is our Sindri's 8th birthday party
off to a giant playground we will go with 5 of his friends.
i should probably go to sleep so that i can run a little faster tomorrow to keep up with them.
and above is Amelies 5th birthday cake. i pulled it out of the oven and it was smiling at me
all it needed were two daisy eyes from the garden. perfect :-)
so goodnight x